Monday, March 9, 2009

I miss you Dad

The house is quiet.
Everyone is asleep.

I'm done with my daily busyness.

My mind is remembering.

My heart hurts.

The tears flow.

My Dad left this earthly world 2 years ago today. It's one of those moments in time, that when I heard the news, I will never forget where I was, what I was doing, what time it was, what I was wearing, what was said, who was there. Just a brief moment in time that forever changes who I am.

The moments I will forever treasure are those that I was able to spend with my Dad. I am blessed to have had a Dad that was a great man. One that loved God, my Mom, and his family. He was dedicated, determined, and a
hard-worker. My Dad deserves pages and pages of edification. Of which, I am unable to put into words tonight. I know, as well as so many, many others, of his great qualities. You can look around at those lives that he has touched, and see a part of him that still remains. He has forever changed who I am. I am so proud to be his daughter.

While in church on Sunday morning, I watched a young child, maybe 16 months old, arrive with his parents. They joined a group of people in a row & were barely settled in, when he was passed from Daddy, to Mommy, over a young cousin, to Uncle, to Auntie, to a very eager gray-haired grandfather. The young boy looked at Grandpa, the Grandpa smiled, the little one touched Grandpa's face, and then he settled comfortably on his lap to enjoy the worship. Not looking towards anyone else, as that's where he belonged.

The tears just rolled down my cheeks. For many reasons, I suppose. I was thinking of my young children being held in their Grandpa's arms, and how they aren't able to do that anymore. How great it was for me as a little girl, and a big girl, to be in the strong presence of my Dad. Mostly, how I can seek refuge in my Heavenly Father's arms. He waits for me & longs for me to come to Him. To seek His Face. To know Him. To crawl into his lap, as that's where I belong.

"Come to Me, all who are weary and heavy-laden, and I will give you rest." Matthew 11:28.


maryannecox said...

Thinking of you and praying for you today. Your sweet mom too. I wish I had gotten the chance to know your dad. Glad to know that he helped get everything ready for my mom and they are fellowshipping and watching over us.

Shannon said...

Hugs Dawn, great big arms wide open hugs - and tears, great big roll down your cheeks and plop on the counter tears. I wish I could be there to share them with you. I still think of that picture of you and your Dad dancing together in Sioux City. So obvious he loved you and the feeling was mutual. You'll see him again someday...won't that be grand?

Schallert Family said...

What a sweet post. You brought tears to my eyes. Thinking of you and wanting to give you a great big hug!

Anonymous said...

Oh Dawn, I wish Dad could have been with us longer so Ben & Chloe could have gotten to know him because family was his priority as you know. Love and hugs to you.

The B Keeper said...

Thanks for all the hugs, friends.

Mom, I love you too.

Sarah Callender said...

What a wonderful post in honor of your Dad. You are a strong woman and such a sweet friend that I admire and cherish! Your dad did a great job with his little girl!